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Thursday, January 31, 2008

him

is this it?
that this is love
the elusive state of being?
when you think about him
you think about the future with him in it
you think about what is he thinking
you think about whether his future includes you
you think about just him

it was unintentional
a last minute surprise at the end of the year
he's different
that's what i said to others
i wonder if it means that
he's more driven
he's more mature
he's more expressive
he's more .... more
or it simply means that
i am in love with this guy
first time in my life

yes i loved guys before
they loved me
but it doesn't justify me
being in love
i loved them back
but i know this love is
initiated out of obligation
the result of reciprocation

i loved them
they mean something in my life
but something's missing
that i have my mind to give out my heart
but my heart is not out there with them

that's the thing
am i putting my heart out this time?
full out and proud
that i'm subjected myself
to the risk of getting hurt?

but he did reassure me
that he will take good care of me
that he will love only me
but i too know that talk is cheap

i trust him fully
but yet i worry still
he is a guy who has seen it all
all kinds
he sampled the whole store of sweets
he knows what he likes and what he doesn't
and he chose me

why? for i'm sure he knows exactly what he wants
i am sure he knows what is perfect for him
i'm not perfect for sure
but he did say
that you don't go finding that perfect someone
you perfect yourself for that someone
so is he trying to adjust his taste?
so he can grow to love me?

i'm me.
i'm like that.
can't i just be simple?
can't i just be happy?
can't i just let him love me?
can't i just love him?

it should be simple as that.
he loves me
i loves him
we make through life together
through thick and thin
simply because we want to make it work together
simply because this is called love

yes the thing called love

amaranthine froze in time on 1:16 PM

Thursday, January 03, 2008

herald in the happiness

it's the time of the year. the start of a bright new year, 2008. which deep down i am confident that this is going to be a great year for me. the past year has been full of ups and downs. but the end is sweet. surprisingly sweet. so here's the look back at the year:

i learnt that

forbidden act gives you momentary delirium but eats your conscience out
earning more doesn't mean you have more money
you can convert your nemesis through sincerity
you can make things happen by the power of thoughts
you have to move on to bigger things and not look back

and more importantly

i learnt that i can fall in love

so this year,

i resolve to

learn to cook
take up golf
master roller-blading
save $500 a month
change a new job by mid-year
increase my salary to $4,000
ostake 5 people
be faithful
love the only one man in my life
speak up more
improve my communication skills
read more
smile more
help more

2008 will be much more. it'll be great. i know it.

amaranthine froze in time on 12:37 PM

it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
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Bits about Me
..........
i like to procastinate
i am a fashion mag junkie
i hate spiders
i am drawn to aesthetics
i have a toenail the size of a dot
i am an owl
i like bananas
i hate favouritism
i don't sing
i can't do a split
i bungee jumped
i am drawn to colours
i eat real slow but drink real fast
i like tans; on me and on guys
i wish i can really cook
i have spatial intelligence
i don't like attention
i am a perfume polygamist
i like to read and smell books
i am a pessimistist
i squander; money n time
i can't count
i am a serial worrier
i am an old soul
i like surprises

make my day and drop me a line at
adropinasea@gmail.com
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Wishlist:
..........
1. new job
2. michael kors chronograph watch
3. good spirits
4. spa pampering at aman resorts
5. time to read
6. good laugh
7. a canine companion
8. a black chandelier
9.
10.kisses and hugs
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Quote to ponder
..........
every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around
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