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Saturday, March 26, 2005two golden words in life"I apologize." yeah simple words. take less than 2 seconds to mutter. but why is it so hard for me to say it? well it's not as if i have done some life-changing mistake, just a small friction at work i face today. but i made me wonder why is it so hard for people to apologise? it's not just me. After all, one who refuses to say they're sorry acts out of fear, but one who admits they were wrong and asks for forgiveness acts out of courage. it takes courage. a diff kind of courage. i can think nothing bout jumping off the cliff for bungee jump but for those two words to come out of my mouth, it can take a whole night of comtemplating. i like to dramatise matters. it's a simple matter. in fact it may not even need an apology. people have conflicts at times. but for me, it's something that bothers me. coz it's sometimes within my control. i can say it and feel good bout myself for doing watever i can to remedy the situation. watever that apology results in doesnt matter. it's beyong my control. the most important thing is that i hav done what i could. no regrets. so it's purely for my own sake. so i can live with it. starting from now. i'm going to hone this courage. to say things in life that can change your life and other pple's life. "i'm sorry" can bring solance and peace of mind to someone. "i love you" can bring a lifetime of happiness. life-altering words. amaranthine froze in time on 10:44 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005Accepting myself"if you can't accept yourself as is, you'll always find something wrong no matter how many changes you make." wat a right moment to come across this line. it's taken from my daily horoscope. yes, i'm feeling very insecure today. in fact, these days. i lost my confidence. i dun like looking at the mirror. but well i have to live with the bad hair days and feeling fat days. i am how i feel i am. if i feel beautiful, no one can convince me that i'm not. similarly, if i feel ugly, no one can convince me that i'm not. so lessons to be learnt? first, never mess around with your fringe yourself. yeah hair grows. but we're talking bout 1-2cm a month. second, never convince yourself of your pseudo-hunger at the suggestion of food. i dun need to prove anything. i eat without thinking. the image in the mirror dun define me. i define myself. amaranthine froze in time on 9:09 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005nip, snip...yeah that's wat happens when i'm feeling utterly unattractive. i'm feeling the impulse to do something drastic... to look different from now. they say hair is symbolic of the life a woman is having. a bad patch almost certainly warrant a visit to the hair salon for the symbolic ritual of cutting off the bad elements. the past life. and come out not only revitalised. but renewed. you step out a different person. losing those few inches of dead cells from your body is tantamount to being blessed with a new life from above. the hair is my life. if it sucks, so do my life. and vice versa. amaranthine froze in time on 11:19 PM
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