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Saturday, May 07, 2005life. none the same. none the best.they say reading fashion magazines can be detrimental to your body esteem. looking at the perfect bodies and faces in the glossy pages, i cant help but to pinch at my middle or scrutinise the scars on my face. they make me feel less. period. models aren't mortals. they're digitalised perfections. gods are the pple behind the lens and computer. or i chose to believe it. but reading blogs, my new-found elixir of the moment is another thing. i'm reading the life of real pple. living here and all over the world. they amaze me with their command of language. which is probably why i find it harder to write now. i'm feeling the hit of inferiority. writing has been something i'm proud of since my uni days. writing essays incessantly. which i enjoyed. but now all i write are polite emails. and reading about the life of other bloggers really magnified the nullity of my life. boring! writing this clearly is evidence that there's nothing interesting in my life nor do i have interesting thing to say about life and issues that i have to write an entry on how i make myself more miserable by reading blogs and fashion mags. pathetic i'll say. but it's just me. some of the more interesting blogs i have read are essentially about normal nits and grits of life. the train ride. the tv show. i do realise i'm not inspired lately. my life is just duh..... now taking my break at home. again. thus this crappy entry. this time with a swollen side and a bloody mouth. i amaze myself sometimes at being so brave at taking multiple injections yet failing to have the courage to speak my mind. well that's me. shy but gung-ho. i can take on fear factor anytime and eat anything. but i will definitely be eaten alive in apprentice. but in life, the ability to try the weirdest doesnt count for much then the ability to stand up for yourself. i always wonder. will i have a life pple envy? i always doubt that. not that i wil have a loser life. i will have a life that i want. I don't need someone else approval or envy to justify it. it's my life. amaranthine froze in time on 12:17 AM |
it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
_______________ Bits about Me .......... i like to procastinate i am a fashion mag junkie i hate spiders i am drawn to aesthetics i have a toenail the size of a dot i am an owl i like bananas i hate favouritism i don't sing i can't do a split i bungee jumped i am drawn to colours i eat real slow but drink real fast i like tans; on me and on guys i wish i can really cook i have spatial intelligence i don't like attention i am a perfume polygamist i like to read and smell books i am a pessimistist i squander; money n time i can't count i am a serial worrier i am an old soul i like surprises make my day and drop me a line at adropinasea@gmail.com _______________ Wishlist: .......... 1. new job 2. michael kors chronograph watch 3. good spirits 4. spa pampering at aman resorts 5. time to read 6. good laugh 7. a canine companion 8. a black chandelier 9. 10.kisses and hugs _______________ Quote to ponder .......... every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around _______________ ARCHIVES
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