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Monday, August 22, 2005my idee fixethey are more than dead tissues. my state of life depends on them. men don't really understand. but fair enough, i don't understand how he can spend that much on his technies so i don't expect him to understand the amount i spent can justify "oh-really?" change to my hair. i didnt for a moment hestitate or procrastinated at doing whatever it cost to give a new lease of life to my hair. and indeed, well worth it. to heck what others cant see. what matters is how it makes me feel. never underestimate the effects of a haircut. amaranthine froze in time on 10:59 AM
Sunday, August 14, 2005non-existent choicesi never really regreted my choices in life. i always believed that the wrong choice is what takes me to where i am. but now, i've made a choice which i am not acknowledging. apparently. why is that? perhaps that's another question that i'm not willing to explore further. yes i do not have any more choices. it's meant to be. amaranthine froze in time on 11:07 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005relookingthings seem great. but it can be better. and it can get worse. when i am feeling like it's almost like the end of the world, i hoped for things to go really bad so that the only way ahead is up. it's my attempt at exhausting all things terrible so that there wil be none left. when i'm feeling great, i will always hold the reign and attempt to halt the joy ride fearing that if i go too fast i will end up in dumps. or i will have the breathers in between, fearing that it wil not last as long if i keep going. so right now, i'm feeling happier than the past few months. i have that special someone in my life. i'm getting along well at work. my family is supportive. my friends are still great. things can be all so great. i'm basking in the contentment of life of current. yet i'm not about to stay there forever. it may turn for the worse. losing him losing everything. but it can also turn for the better. i'm relooking at my life and i think i needed discipline. i'm tired of having to deal with the fear of being penniless and broke. i'm sick of having to deal with the procrastination of clearing the prodigious mess in my room. i'm tired of relooking myself in the mirror and find more flaws with myself and my hair. i'm tired of ending the day feeling like i've really lived the day. it just went past. nothing achieved nothing given. so yes i'm relooking at my life and i'm looking for improvements. life's great but it can be better by my intention. i want to start doing something to improve my financial security. i will have to work on my blueprint for that new storage unit i want to have in my room. i will go for a haircut and do my exercise and healthy diet regime. i want to have a goal i want to work towards. i want to take control of my life. and i will do just that. amaranthine froze in time on 12:01 PM
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it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
_______________ Bits about Me .......... i like to procastinate i am a fashion mag junkie i hate spiders i am drawn to aesthetics i have a toenail the size of a dot i am an owl i like bananas i hate favouritism i don't sing i can't do a split i bungee jumped i am drawn to colours i eat real slow but drink real fast i like tans; on me and on guys i wish i can really cook i have spatial intelligence i don't like attention i am a perfume polygamist i like to read and smell books i am a pessimistist i squander; money n time i can't count i am a serial worrier i am an old soul i like surprises make my day and drop me a line at adropinasea@gmail.com _______________ Wishlist: .......... 1. new job 2. michael kors chronograph watch 3. good spirits 4. spa pampering at aman resorts 5. time to read 6. good laugh 7. a canine companion 8. a black chandelier 9. 10.kisses and hugs _______________ Quote to ponder .......... every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around _______________ ARCHIVES
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