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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

it takes an end to start

i did what i planned unplanned
i did what i should but not i want

i know i need to do it
coz i am not happy
but i do not want that to happen to you
but i figured it works either way
it's you or me

when i'm with you
i think of your flaws
when i'm not
i think of your good

that's me.
a loss is more sharply felt than a gain
yes, it's me not you
coz i do not want to tell you
how i pick out your flaws
i do not want to inflict more hurt than i did
it hurt more than i thought it would

if you hate me i cant blame you
if you disappear from my life i cant control that
but why
i never want to understand
that a part of your life can be forever lost
lost not dead

i hate to not know
i rather know the harsh truths than not knowing
how are you getting along
are you happy
are you lonely
are you thinking of me
are you hating me
are you
or am i just forgotten
it's just me
looking at the settled dust

an end
the one i not quite willingly initiated
i thought
is this really the time?
but what is?

so what's next?
a start.
not of another
but of possibilities
a start of everything
better or worse
it's still a start
but a start i hope is worth the end

amaranthine froze in time on 1:44 AM

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it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
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Bits about Me
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i like to procastinate
i am a fashion mag junkie
i hate spiders
i am drawn to aesthetics
i have a toenail the size of a dot
i am an owl
i like bananas
i hate favouritism
i don't sing
i can't do a split
i bungee jumped
i am drawn to colours
i eat real slow but drink real fast
i like tans; on me and on guys
i wish i can really cook
i have spatial intelligence
i don't like attention
i am a perfume polygamist
i like to read and smell books
i am a pessimistist
i squander; money n time
i can't count
i am a serial worrier
i am an old soul
i like surprises

make my day and drop me a line at
adropinasea@gmail.com
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Wishlist:
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1. new job
2. michael kors chronograph watch
3. good spirits
4. spa pampering at aman resorts
5. time to read
6. good laugh
7. a canine companion
8. a black chandelier
9.
10.kisses and hugs
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Quote to ponder
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every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around
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