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Thursday, January 26, 2006pain residespain comes in many different variations the pain of operation and wounds the pain of canes and injections the pain of lost and dejection i can withstand true pain comes to me when i find myself not able to answer you when you asked for my instinct on our relationship whether we will be married with kids i can't coz I know you will not want to hear it coz I know that you too know where it will be headed coz I know you are afraid too coz I know you just want the assurance from me coz I know that you know the pain already coz I know that you do not want history to repeat itself true pain comes to me when i find myself caught between what I want and what I can do i know what I want but I know I can't i can't choose to be with the man I want coz I have a man crazy in love with me coz you want a woman crazy about God like you coz I have sinned and still sinning coz you need a pure woman within coz I am everything that you will not want coz you are everything that isn't me true pain comes to me when i find myself knowing what I should do but can't do i know that I am wrong we are wrong together but I try so hard to make it right coz your life evolves around me coz you changed yourself for me coz you never make me feel less coz you love me with a capacity I'm incapable of true pain comes to me when i find myself liking what I should not and disliking what I should i always find ways to rebel but it is really taking its toil on me coz I spend my time being a taker not a giver coz taking takes more out of me than giving coz making love makes less sense than sex coz my heart doesn't flutter coz my desires isn't aroused coz my enjoyment is forbidden coz my happiness is followed by guilt coz I know I will never get that happiness coz I know that soon it will be all over, for both coz I know ultimately I will be the biggest loser amaranthine froze in time on 2:38 PM |
it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
_______________ Bits about Me .......... i like to procastinate i am a fashion mag junkie i hate spiders i am drawn to aesthetics i have a toenail the size of a dot i am an owl i like bananas i hate favouritism i don't sing i can't do a split i bungee jumped i am drawn to colours i eat real slow but drink real fast i like tans; on me and on guys i wish i can really cook i have spatial intelligence i don't like attention i am a perfume polygamist i like to read and smell books i am a pessimistist i squander; money n time i can't count i am a serial worrier i am an old soul i like surprises make my day and drop me a line at adropinasea@gmail.com _______________ Wishlist: .......... 1. new job 2. michael kors chronograph watch 3. good spirits 4. spa pampering at aman resorts 5. time to read 6. good laugh 7. a canine companion 8. a black chandelier 9. 10.kisses and hugs _______________ Quote to ponder .......... every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around _______________ ARCHIVES
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