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Friday, February 06, 2004me an idol?why is singing so profitable? why cant talents in drawing n writing bring in as much hype and money as having a golden voice? ok i'm not being bitter here coz i can't hold a note, juz that the american idol hype is really impressive. the thrones of pple pursing the dream of being a idol singer. with some clearly blinded n made tone-deaf by the desire to be famous n rich. hmm wat if i can sing. well will i go for such an audition? ok no. first the last thing i want is fame. coz it wil mean that i wil lose my treasured privacy. i like to disappear among the crowd. i dun want to stand out. i would rather be the background person. those pple who arent the main leads but who others cant do without. with my names among the credits. or be the name behind successes. yes no face included. so i can afford to be ugly on bad days. be rude to e rudes. be nobody among everyone else. i do not want to be a manufactured product. where i am juz the voice. not a person. where pple hav to tell me wat to wear how to act how to be the idol they want. u lose all your independence n freedom. where u live for others. the expectation to be perfect. that u shd be good. like poor rubben who seems to lost his touch his clay. expectations can kill. as for the money part. ok i'm not gg to be hypocritic by saying i dun go for money n money cant buy u everything n blah blah... coz money does buy u something. judging from the list of material desires i hav i certainly can do with more money. but the money that comes from a singing career like the ai predescendents is overwhelming. stars cant bloody finish spending their money. that's when u hav to think hard wat to buy to spend the most out of an item. when u hav to dig out some desires to fulfil. when indulges become daily rituals. when one nv look at the price tag. when buying is an emotionless action of flashing ur card. when retail therapy loses its effects. thus i disagree when pple say u can nv get enough of something. u can. i'm an advocate of retail therapy. the thrill of buying that long desired item or the excitement over a impulse buy. that momentary gratification. and yes also including the crawling sense of guilt when i look at the after-effects on my bank account. that's when i tell myself that i hav to let it lie fallow. in the meanwhile i continue to build up my list of wants, anticipating for the next round of spree. ah yes it is a vicious cycle where clearly savings doesnt or plainly cant come into the picture. yes i am perhaps e most cash poor person among my peers. well ok i hav to say i was a bit carried-off in my description of retail therapy coz if i hav to choose i wil rather hav a quiet day at home then a fruitful day in town. nothing is more rewarding then some peace and solitude. oh ok where was i. being an idol. yeah unless they are looking for an idol with no face or private life attached. n with the conditions of no night assignments n part of income pledged to charity. amaranthine froze in time on 2:23 AM |
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