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Thursday, July 28, 2005where have all the muscles gone?i look in the mirror. examining the contours of my body and arms. tracing back the amount of b&j ice-cream, sweets, chocolates i have been eating. all i can manage is a sign of resignation. no surprise there. i am reaping the results of my careless eating. yes. i'm having a low body esteem right now. not to the extent of forbidding myself food. no meal skipping. not to the extent that i woke my ass everyday in desperation to revive those lean muscles of the past. not yet. that i might be capable of. yes i need discipline. which never really did exist in my dictionary. where was it when i'm doing my running test, almost one more round to go and i decided to fake cramp to escape the last round. when i am done with five. where was it when i was sipping my wine with friends without ever thinking about the test i have the next day. where was it when i inadvertently finished a whole tub of ice-cream or bag of cookies or bar of chocolate while sitting there with a stack of notes in view to justify the need to move some parts of my body to keep awake. where was it when i swapped the card for a purchase that rendered my bank account near empty. ok. so it is time i start having discipline. some improvements already in place. remember how i actually got up early for the gym when i could barely take my makeup off the previous night awake. it helps that i like the high and energy i get from exercise. that i like healthy food. that i want to look good. i am going to get back those muscles. get back my contours (in the right places). get back my confidence. i have some damage control to do. better yet, work towards a better me. amaranthine froze in time on 11:22 AM |
it does not take much effort to see past the mundane and notice the little details in life
_______________ Bits about Me .......... i like to procastinate i am a fashion mag junkie i hate spiders i am drawn to aesthetics i have a toenail the size of a dot i am an owl i like bananas i hate favouritism i don't sing i can't do a split i bungee jumped i am drawn to colours i eat real slow but drink real fast i like tans; on me and on guys i wish i can really cook i have spatial intelligence i don't like attention i am a perfume polygamist i like to read and smell books i am a pessimistist i squander; money n time i can't count i am a serial worrier i am an old soul i like surprises make my day and drop me a line at adropinasea@gmail.com _______________ Wishlist: .......... 1. new job 2. michael kors chronograph watch 3. good spirits 4. spa pampering at aman resorts 5. time to read 6. good laugh 7. a canine companion 8. a black chandelier 9. 10.kisses and hugs _______________ Quote to ponder .......... every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around _______________ ARCHIVES
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Picture Credits: Kurt Halsey
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